Saturday, May 30, 2009


My brother, Sean, moved to Arizona just after Christmas this past year. All of his stuff has been in a storage unit and he asked my mom to go through it all, sell stuff that he didn't need and store the rest of it. I spoke to him on the phone the other day and we were talking about it, he told me if I wanted anything to just take it. I said "Even the Carl Yastrzemski signed baseball?" He said yes and told me there was also a signed lithograph in there as well if I wanted it. COOL!!

Ok, now I know this is going to be disappointing to all of you loyal Red Sox fans, but I have no idea who Carl Yastrzemski is. I like the Red Sox and I support them but all I care about is if they win or lose, I have no clue about the players. However...Mr. Yastrzemski signed this ball and the lithograph specifically for an auction that was held for Savannah when she was first diagnosed with cancer. That being said, having a signed baseball and lithograph by a famous Red Sox player is WAY COOL!!!

Thank you, Sean!

Polka Dots!

Donovan came running out of the bathroom the other day and said "Mama, I have polka dots!" I said "What?" Then he proceeded to point to his nose and said again, "I have polka dots!"

I have been wanting to blog it for quite some time now but I have been so busy with work that I rarely have time to do what I want to. I love my work, so it's ok, but it is nice to do something I want for a few minutes.

I told Donovan today that I wanted a picture of his polka dots. This was our first attempt...Then he told me I could take a picture of his polka dots if he could take a picture of me making a funny face.... Lucky for me he doesn't have good aim, at least with my camera, other cameras he does, mine is just too heavy!

This was our final shot! Aren't his polka dots cute?

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

When it rains, it POURS!!!

Well this has not been the best weekend for us! And not a lot of it had to do with Memorial day. I should have known with the way we started it out!

Friday evening I needed to get some work done, just ordering dance pictures for the school I photographed last week. I wasn't motivated staying at home so I decided to pack up my stuff and the kids and go to Marie's house to hang out. This way I could have someone to motivate me when I lost the motivation and kids to entertain my kids so they would stay out of my hair.

I was doing well and the kids were having a ball playing outside, riding bikes and playing in the sandbox. We didn't really have any bickering with the kids either (it usually happens at least a couple of times.) All of a sudden Dustin comes in the house carrying a rather calm Donovan who's foot was bleeding (he usually freaks out at the sight of his own blood). He set him in the shower, it was bleeding pretty good, and Marie and I investigated the source of the bleeding. All Donovan told us was that he stepped on a toy in the sandbox. My kids are like me, we hate shoes, they are just a necessary evil most of the time.

After cleaning his foot as best we could we noticed a little puncture wound on his heel. I carried him to the dining room where I was working and looked at it a little closer in better lighting. A few minutes later one of the kids, I don't remember which, came in the house carrying an old board with a nail sticking out of it. Donovan told us that it was what he stepped on. So I called the doctor, she said he should be fine until I reminded her that he isn't immunized.

Let me pause for a moment and tell you not to lecture me about immunizing my children, I have heard it all before. Our decision not to immunize them was a choice Brian and I made after a lot of studying, research and prayer before Savannah was born.

I called Brian on my way to the emergency room and I was glad I did. I had not been to the emergency room since before Savannah died and they chose to put us in the room that they frequently put Savannah in. The PA looked at his foot and was about to send us on our way when I asked him if Donovan needed a tetanus shot. I really wish that they would look at the chart before the come in to see the patients.

The nurse came in with an assistant and 2 shots because he hadn't had any before. The assistant went to hold Donovan down and I told her to get her hands off of him, she was scaring him. I proceeded to tell her that I had done this for the past 3 years and I knew what my child needed and he did not need her to hold him down. Now I understand that some kids need that but I wasn't about to let them scare him when he didn't even know what was going on. I calmly explained to Donovan what they were going to do and then told him how Sissy would sit in my lap and squeeze my hands if it hurt. He climbed into my lap and let the nurse give him the shots, both of them. He didn't not start crying until after she left the room. We told him how proud we were of him for being such a big boy and that it was ok to cry if it hurt.

Because I didn't get my work done Friday night I had to do it Saturday, again no motivation. I started out having a hard day, I think it was combination of being in the emergency room and it being Memorial Day weekend. Marie came to my house with her kids, her son mowed my lawn, it needed it! And she visited with me while I tried to get some work done. She needed to leave at 2:00 for an appointment, I still was not doing well. I wanted to go, but knew I needed to get my work done. She quite literally twisted my arm and told me I needed to go. She was very kind to me and gave up her appointment to get her legs waxed so I could get mine done. I needed a little pampering! Thanks Marie! (By the way, I did finish my work Saturday evening!)

On Sunday we were informed by our landlady that she has sold our house and we have 6 weeks to buy a house (we've been casually looking) or find a new rent. We have been looking at buying a house but we did not want to make a quick decision.

Monday we went to the parade and then to the cemetery. We cleaned up Savannah's site a little and bought her a beautiful pink hanging plant. Kiara and Donovan frequently play on the little wooden bridge that crosses a tiny stream in the cemetery. They like to slide down the railings, well Donovan got a splinter. I completely forgot about it until this morning when he showed me that it was turning a little red. I got out the tweezers but I couldn't get it out, so I had to get a needle. Again, he was a very brave boy, he did fuss and cry while I was trying to get it out but he didn't try to pull his hand away. We put some medicine and a bandaid on it (bandaids cure everything).

I need a calm week, PLEASE!!!

Friday, May 15, 2009

Too Much for Me!!

Tonight was dress rehersal for Kiara's dance recital. I knew going would be hard but I did not expect it to be as hard as it was. I decided to take Lady with me and I am glad I did. I walked in and immediately 3 people came up to me asking me how I was. Now don't get me wrong I like that people are concerned and aware that all of these firsts are very hard for me, but that is just it, they are hard. Please don't stop asking!

After getting Kiara dressed for tap we took our usual trip backstage to see Mr. Scott. We always took a picture of him with the girls before the show started. We got our hugs, and our picture.
My parents arrived and we went up to the balcony to watch the show. My mom wanted a program so I went and took one from one of the helpers. I opened it up and the first thing I saw was this...(if you can't read it click on it and it will open larger). Up until that point I held it together pretty good. I sobbed, it took me several minutes to calm down. A parents biggest fear is that people will forget their child who has died. I know I will never forget Savannah and I am sure most people will remember her but to have it made so public that she is missed and not forgotten really touched me. I noticed later on the front of the program at the bottom it says "Studio One's 28th production is dedicated to the memory of Princess Savannah Hurley...Our Studio One Angel"

Kiara as usual did an awesome job. She knew all of the steps and had a big smile on her face the whole time. Her tap song was "Getting to Know You" from My Fair Lady and her ballet was an instrumental version of "The Rainbow Connection." I am so proud of her, she loves dance and it shows in the way she dances. At the end of her ballet number they exit the stage in pairs, Kiara and her partner had the biggest grins on their faces and danced with a lot of enthusiam. Kiara even snuck in a little wave before she left the stage. Everyone laughed, it was cute.

I missed the tap number that would have been Savannah's class but I did see the ballet. The song Mr. Scott chose was "A Mother's Prayer" by Celine Dion. I, of course, sobbed again. One of the mother's from Kiara's class came up to me and said "That was Savannah's class, wasn't it?" When I told her yes she started to cry which only got me going again. I heard from one of the mother's in Savannah's class that her daughter said Savannah was dancing beside her tonight. Dancing was one of her favorite things she was always sad when she had to miss it.